i’m grateful that i was able to live my first 40 or so years in a seemingly less frantic, desperate, divisive, cruel world. and i’m grateful, too, that the part of my earliest exposure to the arts, film, music, culture and colors filled me to the top, brimful of joy, sunny light, easy tunes, gentility, sweetness, pollyanna optimism and plucky resolve to make the best of it.
those tools sure come in handy these days. i feel compelled to apologize to my three great kids for their having to cope and accept the way things are now. as a parent, showing the right vs wrong in pretty much everything about life and our choices and our responsibilities, i’m embarrassed that the world and its current crop of people are such losers, so mean, so cruel, so angry. can’t everyone just knock it off?
sure, i know what’s going on out there. i am sometimes unable to tear myself away from the tweets and updates that fling reports of sick, twisted, sad, unfathomable cruelty to throngs of shocked readers. my heart breaks, over and over and over again with each loss. i watch a political system that makes me think of our founding fathers (and mothers) shaking their heads in dismay. i see a culture spinning out of control, and yes, if i chose to, i could choose to be immobilized by terror.
but, plucky and optimistic folks don’t give in, nor crumble, nor entertain that sort of heavy trap. no, people like me see the good, envision the possible, yes, even the impossible. i don’t give up, i believe and hope and choose the road that leads to good, because it still exists.
choosing to feel it every moment of every day, despite the mess, distractions and calamities, soaring stronger with a fortitude and foundation that can’t be broken.
i’m not going to give in to the global terror nor to the local spite, nor am i going to encourage my children to embrace the stormy climate as their own: no, my job is to hand out umbrellas to shelter from the storm of fear, blast happy tunes to drive out the mean, cruel wind of evil, and fertilize the ground of our every day with pure, strong love to grow sweet, trusting, kind, loving humanity.